It's been so long since i last updated my blog. Almost a year already. 

Today i know why i'm penning down all of these. One day, i'll look back and i can remember how she used to treat me during my tough days. I'm not trying to play victim here. 

  

They say, 相爱容易相处难. I've always understand this metaphor since young. Because i know, i love her and yet i cant get along very well with her. It's tedious to be fighting months after months. And sometimes it got so bad that it hurts so much. 

 

I totally agree with the above saying. 

Today, 29Feb2016. Wait, i should start ranting from yesterday which is 28Feb2016. So, it was a sunday when she asked me to change bedsheets tomorrow (For myself and bro). And then i went out to meet love. Okay, thats one good news because i get to see love after her bball <3 After that, i spent the night out with love and went back home on 29Feb2016, which is today. So i went home and changed my own bedsheet. I asked my bro to change his own bedsheet. Is it wrong? Fyi, he's 15 year old. He has always help me with it, and he never complains about it. But, she just have to start. So she came home and saw that bro's bedsheet wasnt changed yet. So she asked, why didnt i changed his? Did she asked me to change my own bedsheet when i was 15? -paused-

  

So, about changing my own bedsheet when i was 15. Did i or not? Technically speaking, she didnt ask me to change my own bedsheet but she sent me to Singapore Girls' Home and so, i have to change my own bedsheet. Dont get mistaken about the police catching me inside and stuffs. Instead, it was my mum who sent me in herself. So IF 15 was a young age, then isn't it too harsh to sent me into Singapore Girls' Home because i play truant and ran away from home(because my parents were always quarreling)? If no, it's not too harsh. Then how is a 15 year old, changing his own bedsheet, considered too much? 

-resume- And so, i storm into the room and change the bedsheet but at this moment my bro came and take over the job as he said, that's his bed. So it's okay, he will do it. So, even my brother understand that he's old enough to change his own bedsheet, get his own bowl of rice and stuffs. Nevermind. So i was angry with her throughout. Here came our 9pm daily family routine. Technologies aside, we watched Tv together. At this moment, she opened her mouth.

Her : 你跟弟弟吵架是吗? (Furious tone)

Me : Since when?

Her : 为了什么事吵？

Me : Since when? Since when did we quarrel?

Bro : Ya loh, since when sia?

Her : 那么为什么脸臭臭？又没欠你们什么?

Bro : Just now i at there laugh, you say i siao. Now i sian sian, you say i 脸臭臭. What you want sia.

Her : 没有吵架就好，如果兄弟姐妹要吵，那么做兄弟姐妹做什么?

Me : From the start we didnt even quarrel.

Her : Okay, so next time i ask you to do things....

Me : Dont worry, i wont ask him to do anymore.

Her : Continue your attitude, it's not going to get you anywhere. I ask you to change bedsheets, you ask bro to do.

Me : Ehh, i only ask bro to change his own bedsheet. And then you say what? 15yo stuffs. What sia. 15yo you throw me inside girlshome, i changed my own bedsheets do my own area cleaning. 

Her : 那是因为你做的事情所以你才进去的.

Me : I was 15, i play truant, ran away from home. You put me in.

Her : 你不需要推卸责任，叫你做的事你就做。

Me : Please lah, all i did was ask bro to do his own bedsheet. And that's something he knows how to do. There are times he helped me with it also what. Got wrong? We can share burdens as siblings, got wrong:? I knew you will be angry, i even asked you. Endup you came home and prove me right.

Her : 所以你是讲我对弟弟偏心啦!

Me : (Look at her and shake my head)

Her : 你不需要跟我摇头

Me : (Look straight)

So she kept quiet awhile. And then she start again with money matters and say how much money do i left after CNY. During the period of CNY, i earned $800 from my previous job that i got terminated. She wanted $600 from me. And then nevermind. After CNY, she take another $400 plus from me. So total i gave her more than $1k. And then she say about how much do i left. I asked her why? She ask me again. I say i dont know. And then she ask me to go and count now. Then i say i dont have, after i give you i dont have anymore. Then she start to say about i keep going out here and there. She dont want to hear me borrowing from her again. So i say, dont worry. I wont even take a single cent from you ever. She said make sure. 

I know, she isnt happy because i talked back to her. True enough, she start to talk sarcastically. About me ALWAYS shirking responsibility. The things she asked me to do, i kept pushing to others to do. I merely asked my brother to change his own bedsheet. And that's all. In order to protect her son, she is really capable of every words no matter how unreasonable it may sound. Really. I'm so disappointed.

And then moments later, she start again. This time round, she talk to dad. 

Her : 一天没回家脾气就这样，如果两三天没回家呢？不是要天下大乱。

I overheard and fought for my rights this time instead of keeping quiet. 

Me : 你不要乱讲 hor, 我不开心是因为你讲的话。你不要可以怪就怪。你要complain给 daddy就讲整个故事。不要只讲你的部分。

And then i storm to the room. I was really furious about this matter. The hate for her is back.

 

She dont know me well. She really dont have to act like she do.